Surviving The Unknown
I'm standing in line at the all you can eat buffet of shit happens!
Whoever said, “God only gives you what you can handle,” clearly didn’t know what they were talking about!
I finally reached a point in my life where I couldn’t take it anymore. I became so used to feeling depressed, I forgot what it felt like to feel good.
I’ve been very independent with my struggles and tried to fight them on my own; not realizing I did more damage to myself.
I didn’t realize how bad my depression was until I started to fantasize about death. Granted, I couldn’t see myself plotting and acting on my thoughts but the thought of not being here sounded better than staying. I later learned, it wasn’t that I wanted to die, I just didn’t want a bad life.
There are things that happen in life that causes us to be permanently scared. Scared of what lies ahead. Scared of the unknown. Someone asked me, “How did you survive your darkest years?” My answer was, “Not knowing.”
Sometimes the unknown is what protects our minds.
If someone came to me six years ago and said this is what your life is going to be like up to this point, I would have said, “Hell no! There is no way I’m going to survive that.” But I did. There was something inside my core that gave me the ability to keep fighting.
Think about the worst thing you ever went through. Now, imagine it will never happen again. Granted, we are all going to face hurdles but if you survived the worst then you must believe you can survive anything.
We all have obstacles on this roller coaster called life and we don’t know what’s ahead of us, but we all have more strength in us than we realize.
It’s not until we reach a positive place and cross over the bridge can we finally see the progress we've made.
It’s like climbing a mountain. When we’re at the bottom, our view is blocked. It’s not until we get to the top are we able to see how far we’ve come. We’re not able to see the beautiful open space; the journey that lies before us.